Maybe just a bite, mmm so good. Maybe just a dip of this, oh even better. Maybe just another piece, yes a little bigger. Oh I need to scoop up some of those crumbs that fell. Maybe I'll grab some off your plate. Oh your right it is good! Oh I haven't had that much. I'll stop after this bite. I worked out today one more can't hurt...Then your lost, lost to that savage dog Binge.
Savage is his wrath, dread for the night, you can't sleep you toss and you turn. All because you had "one more bite". You wish and your curse just to start all over, but you know when morning light comes you'll slowly, dreadfully trek to your best and worst friend, the scale. Will you fall to your knees begging forgiveness? Is it already to late. Reach with your fingers, is it worth it or has your disgusting pig like body soaked up all the calories already? Maybe you can work it off. 100 jumping jacks here, 90 crunches there.
Feeling a bit better? Don't worry that won't last.
don't sit, don't stop moving, fidget, fidget, fidget harder. you need to burn more, more, more. Tired? to bad sleep means you've stopped moving you can do that. Not now. Feel like crying? Well you should. If you did what Ana told you you wouldn't feel this way.
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Sitting in the restaurant I hear laughter and conversation. I think they're laughing at me, thinking this huge woman dares to go in public? then i hear a laugh "thats disgusting haha!" I think they are talking about me. Why can't I just eat in piece? cause I shouldn't eat at all.
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